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Wednesday, 19 April 2023
Grandmothers
Babcię
En: Been connecting to my roots through these paintings of my grandmothers. They left too soon, leaving behind a hollow space in me that longs for their presence once again. I painted these portraits to capure my grandmother's essence and honor them. Painting them has made me feel closer, like a cord that connects me to them. It made me realize that relationships with loved ones can still grow even after their passing 
Acrylic on canvas
Pl:Łączę się z moimi korzeniami poprzez te obrazy moich babć. Odeszli zbyt wcześnie, pozostawiając we mnie pustkę, która tęskni za ich obecnością ponownie. Namalowałam te portrety, aby uchwycić esencję mojej babci i oddać jej cześć. Malowanie ich sprawiło, że poczułam się bliżej, jak sznur, który mnie z nimi łączy. Uświadomiła mi, że relacje z bliskimi wciąż mogą się rozwijać nawet po ich odejściu
Wednesday, 16 November 2022
Misiu
EN
Misiu
This is a personal painting of my cat Misiu, he died last year and it took some time to finish. Now I have this memory. Painted in acrylic on canvas.
You were my best buddy for almost 15 years. I miss you everyday, your adorable, cozy, softness, gentle nature, and the constant connection with you. I have grown used to having you always around wanting to play and nap beside me. You made everything feel better. Your soft and gentle nature was very soothing for me over the years.
Your passing made me feel that these amazing experiences died with you. But now I see your final teaching in my life is to create a void for those aspects to come back multiplied.
Thank you for being in my life. You will always be my buddy.
PL:
To jest osobisty obraz mojego kota Misiu, który zmarł w zeszłym roku i trochę czasu zajęło mi jego ukończenie. Teraz mam to wspomnienie. Malowany akrylem na płótnie.
Byłeś moim najlepszym kumplem przez prawie 15 lat. Tęsknię za tobą każdego dnia, za twoją uroczą, przytulną, łagodną naturą i ciągłym połączeniem z tobą. Przyzwyczaiłam się do tego, że zawsze jesteś ze mną i chcesz się bawić i drzemać. Sprawiłeś, że wszystko było lepsze. Twoja miękka i delikatna natura była dla mnie bardzo kojąca przez lata.
Twoje odejście sprawiło, że poczułam, że te niesamowite przeżycia umarły razem z Tobą. Ale teraz widzę, że twoim ostatnim nauczaniem w moim życiu jest stworzenie pustki, aby te aspekty powróciły zwielokrotnione.
Dziękuję, że jesteś w moim życiu. Zawsze będziesz moim kumplem.
Sunday, 4 September 2022
Painting Journal work part 1
EN-In the summer of 2020 I bought a water colour sketch book. Here is a collection of my work so far.
Watercolor and gouache studies.
PL- Latem 2020 kupiłam szkicownik akwareli. Oto zbiór moich dotychczasowych prac.
Studia akwareli i gwaszu.
Port Credit, 2020
#watercolor #artjournal #art #paintings #gouache
Friday, 5 August 2022
I'm back
Hi, it's been a while. I know I've been gone. I just stopped. With everything that has been going on in the last two years, it's been quite chaotic.
To be honest I don't know how to start again. But I want to connect. I know that through my posts, it is a way some of you get to connect and know me. So when I stopped it's like I disappeared.
Well I'm here now, and I want to connect. I don't know what to say or how to start. So let's start from the beginning.
When I first started connecting. I was sharing my art journey. I was my expressing with all of you, on how I've been and what I've been working on. I was sharing a part of my life experience with people. I've realized just how precious that was. It was very important to me. Being able too connect with others by letting you all into my world, and I really valued that. Not just professionally, but personally too.
Self expression is very important to me. But something that hasn't come easy. Since I felt like being authentically myself, and letting my work reflect that felt like I was exposing myself too much. This was part of the reason for my hiatus. I still kept doing creative work, but I felt the need to engage more with my internal world, that simply wasn't ready for outsiders to see.
There has been lots of changes last few years. I've grown a lot, and with that came changes to my friends, living situations, new job, new city, new life. I had to let go of some people, circumstances and situations that were not serving me. Like the saying goes, if you want to fly, let go of the things weighing you down. Well I want to soar. So I'm starting up again. This time with more authenticity and boundaries
I've been working a lot this past 2 years. I got to work on some great projects like a VR game, feature film and taught Maya. This growth has been a blessing and I'm grateful for all the experiences.
Now what's coming next is more personal creative self expression and involving more people in it. So here goes!
Good to be back. Hello from above Montreal :)
Monday, 1 July 2019
Life lessons at 30
So
good bye 20s and hello 30s! Thank you everyone for the Birthday wishes.
Lots of love to you all! Today I took the time to reflect on lessons I
have learned so far in my 20s and felt inspired to share!
1. People will change and some will leave. Sometimes it's the ones you least expect and want to hold on to the most. The more your lives differ the less you will see of them. Sometimes you overextend yourself to have people you love in your life and they still leave. This is painful but it's important to not look at yourself through the eyes of people who leave you and don't see your worth. Or to hold onto something that is no longer meant to be. It's OK to lose others but don't lose yourself. See yourself as a vessel going towards your own uncharted seas. And sometimes that may be lonely when there is no one there beside you. But if you keep going towards yours goals and desires. You will eventually start meeting others along the path.
2. Self love is everything and you will be your own parent for the rest of your life. You inner child is very real and at certain times can take over the show. Learn to be gentle with that part of you, treat it with love, compassion and guidance. Let it be creative and nurture that part, it has a lot to teach us. This is a life long practice you will work towards. But if you make it a daily one, it will drastically improve your relationship with yourself as well as with others around you. We can be our own biggest mysteries and having a part of us always striving to know and understand oneself can help you heal, grow and transcend life's challenges.
3. Work is not everything. Growing up I always got the message to work relentlessly. But we sometimes get so caught up in the work that we forget to live and enjoy the things we are working so hard for. Rest and breaks are part of effective work. Over doing it could be counter productive and damaging to your health. Don't let your strive for work ruin what you are working so hard for.
4. Listen to your body. Health is wealth they say. I feel that is not something to fully understand until your health goes. Sometimes we push ourselves too hard and don't prioritize our health until we have no choice but too. If something in your life is negatively effecting your physical, mental and emotional health. Then it should be changed even if others around you don't understand. The way you live your life should be supporting and not damaging your health and well being. Life will just keep giving you lessons until you start to take better care of yourself.
5. It takes time. Healing takes time, building a career takes time, learning a new skill takes time. We live in such a fast paced world where everything is instant gratification. That we lose patience with ourselves and process that take longer. Sometimes we need to give ourselves more rest, practice more or stick to a routine longer then expected to get the results we desire. Not everything is meant to happen right away and we can't always control that. Life is not a race, it's OK to just let things be at times and find acceptance for where we are.
6. You are not going to accomplish everything in your 20s. Part of what has been causing me anxiety about turning 30 was that I felt I didn't achieve enough in my 20s and felt like a total failure. I know my older friends will chuckle at this.. But living in a high pressure society where achieving, money, career, marital status, youth and fit body are everything and a symbol of success. You tend to fall into that belief that there is something wrong with you if you don't have all those things.
5. You are always deserving. In life we sometimes get caught up thinking believing that if we were just, more successful, thinner, richer, more talented, then we would deserve to have love, belonging , support. Except that you fall into the perfectionism trap of never being enough. It is important to work towards your goals from a place of worthiness.
6. People will treat you the way you treat yourself and the way you allow yourself to be treated. The most important relationship is the relationship with you. It sets the standard for everything else.You always need to check in with how you are treating you and what you are allowing for in your life. Sometimes we need to adjust our boundaries and sometimes we need to let people go.
7. You're not going to make sense to everyone and sometimes your truth could make others uncomfortable. You may not fit into other's perception of you. Sometimes people will project past pain onto you or idolize and assume you are someone you're not. Like an art piece, some will hate parts of you that others will love. It's all a matter of perception.
8. Everyone has something to teach you and you have something to teach others. Some times what you really need to hear can come through the most unexpected person. And sometimes you are in the right place at the right to be able to help someone else. Learning is something that never ends and sometimes life's great lessons can come to you in unexpected ways, stay open to them.
9. Your past doesn't have to be your future. This is honestly a difficult one I am still in the process of learning. When you are so used to disappointments and circumstances turning out a certain way it is very difficult to believe in a different future. Since such a thing is just out of our perception. Sometimes this could lead to fear and anxiety when an opportunity presents itself. It helps to carry that fear and uncertainty with you like a child and being gentle with it. I also find inspiring is the quote “If you want something you've never had, you must do something you've never done.
10. You can't fight yourself and win. Tony Robbins said to see how everything is happening for you and not against you. I think every part of us is trying its very best to serve us in some way. Even if it seems counter intuitive. Of course this is easier said then done. But all too often I find that when some part of us causes stress, pain or shame we tend to turn against it and try to fight it as if it's some kind of enemy we need to defeat. I find being present with my self when my mind spirals into the panic and fear and seeing it as my mind's way of trying to help me avoid pain. Seeing how it is in fact trying to help me in its own way, and from there gently finding ways to self sooth.
11. It really doesn't matter in the end. You don't have to prove anything. Life is like a wheel of fortune, you never know where it will spin you and others. Whoever is ahead now could be behind in 6 months and vice versa. The things you worry about now may not matter next year. We are the person we are meant to be now growing and learning in our own way. The good, the bad, I believe nothing is by mistake. We exist in this time and space now but there is part of us that goes on for eternity.
1. People will change and some will leave. Sometimes it's the ones you least expect and want to hold on to the most. The more your lives differ the less you will see of them. Sometimes you overextend yourself to have people you love in your life and they still leave. This is painful but it's important to not look at yourself through the eyes of people who leave you and don't see your worth. Or to hold onto something that is no longer meant to be. It's OK to lose others but don't lose yourself. See yourself as a vessel going towards your own uncharted seas. And sometimes that may be lonely when there is no one there beside you. But if you keep going towards yours goals and desires. You will eventually start meeting others along the path.
2. Self love is everything and you will be your own parent for the rest of your life. You inner child is very real and at certain times can take over the show. Learn to be gentle with that part of you, treat it with love, compassion and guidance. Let it be creative and nurture that part, it has a lot to teach us. This is a life long practice you will work towards. But if you make it a daily one, it will drastically improve your relationship with yourself as well as with others around you. We can be our own biggest mysteries and having a part of us always striving to know and understand oneself can help you heal, grow and transcend life's challenges.
3. Work is not everything. Growing up I always got the message to work relentlessly. But we sometimes get so caught up in the work that we forget to live and enjoy the things we are working so hard for. Rest and breaks are part of effective work. Over doing it could be counter productive and damaging to your health. Don't let your strive for work ruin what you are working so hard for.
4. Listen to your body. Health is wealth they say. I feel that is not something to fully understand until your health goes. Sometimes we push ourselves too hard and don't prioritize our health until we have no choice but too. If something in your life is negatively effecting your physical, mental and emotional health. Then it should be changed even if others around you don't understand. The way you live your life should be supporting and not damaging your health and well being. Life will just keep giving you lessons until you start to take better care of yourself.
5. It takes time. Healing takes time, building a career takes time, learning a new skill takes time. We live in such a fast paced world where everything is instant gratification. That we lose patience with ourselves and process that take longer. Sometimes we need to give ourselves more rest, practice more or stick to a routine longer then expected to get the results we desire. Not everything is meant to happen right away and we can't always control that. Life is not a race, it's OK to just let things be at times and find acceptance for where we are.
6. You are not going to accomplish everything in your 20s. Part of what has been causing me anxiety about turning 30 was that I felt I didn't achieve enough in my 20s and felt like a total failure. I know my older friends will chuckle at this.. But living in a high pressure society where achieving, money, career, marital status, youth and fit body are everything and a symbol of success. You tend to fall into that belief that there is something wrong with you if you don't have all those things.
5. You are always deserving. In life we sometimes get caught up thinking believing that if we were just, more successful, thinner, richer, more talented, then we would deserve to have love, belonging , support. Except that you fall into the perfectionism trap of never being enough. It is important to work towards your goals from a place of worthiness.
6. People will treat you the way you treat yourself and the way you allow yourself to be treated. The most important relationship is the relationship with you. It sets the standard for everything else.You always need to check in with how you are treating you and what you are allowing for in your life. Sometimes we need to adjust our boundaries and sometimes we need to let people go.
7. You're not going to make sense to everyone and sometimes your truth could make others uncomfortable. You may not fit into other's perception of you. Sometimes people will project past pain onto you or idolize and assume you are someone you're not. Like an art piece, some will hate parts of you that others will love. It's all a matter of perception.
8. Everyone has something to teach you and you have something to teach others. Some times what you really need to hear can come through the most unexpected person. And sometimes you are in the right place at the right to be able to help someone else. Learning is something that never ends and sometimes life's great lessons can come to you in unexpected ways, stay open to them.
9. Your past doesn't have to be your future. This is honestly a difficult one I am still in the process of learning. When you are so used to disappointments and circumstances turning out a certain way it is very difficult to believe in a different future. Since such a thing is just out of our perception. Sometimes this could lead to fear and anxiety when an opportunity presents itself. It helps to carry that fear and uncertainty with you like a child and being gentle with it. I also find inspiring is the quote “If you want something you've never had, you must do something you've never done.
10. You can't fight yourself and win. Tony Robbins said to see how everything is happening for you and not against you. I think every part of us is trying its very best to serve us in some way. Even if it seems counter intuitive. Of course this is easier said then done. But all too often I find that when some part of us causes stress, pain or shame we tend to turn against it and try to fight it as if it's some kind of enemy we need to defeat. I find being present with my self when my mind spirals into the panic and fear and seeing it as my mind's way of trying to help me avoid pain. Seeing how it is in fact trying to help me in its own way, and from there gently finding ways to self sooth.
11. It really doesn't matter in the end. You don't have to prove anything. Life is like a wheel of fortune, you never know where it will spin you and others. Whoever is ahead now could be behind in 6 months and vice versa. The things you worry about now may not matter next year. We are the person we are meant to be now growing and learning in our own way. The good, the bad, I believe nothing is by mistake. We exist in this time and space now but there is part of us that goes on for eternity.
Thursday, 13 June 2019
Spaceship revised
Hey everyone! Sorry for the slow posts, been crazy busy at school. Lots of exciting projects coming! I took the time to revisit my space ship and change the colors and textures a bit as well as creating a turn table.
Here is the turn table including the typology.
To see my whole process. You can check it out on my website Here
Here is the turn table including the typology.
To see my whole process. You can check it out on my website Here
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