Monday 1 July 2019


So good bye 20s and hello 30s! Thank you everyone for the Birthday wishes. Lots of love to you all! Today I took the time to reflect on lessons I have learned so far in my 20s and felt inspired to share!

1. People will change and some will leave. Sometimes it's the ones you least expect and want to hold on to the most. The more your lives differ the less you will see of them. Sometimes you overextend yourself to have people you love in your life and they still leave. This is painful but it's important to not look at yourself through the eyes of people who leave you and don't see your worth. Or to hold onto something that is no longer meant to be. It's OK to lose others but don't lose yourself. See yourself as a vessel going towards your own uncharted seas. And sometimes that may be lonely when there is no one there beside you. But if you keep going towards yours goals and desires. You will eventually start meeting others along the path.

2. Self love is everything and you will be your own parent for the rest of your life. You inner child is very real and at certain times can take over the show. Learn to be gentle with that part of you, treat it with love, compassion and guidance. Let it be creative and nurture that part, it has a lot to teach us. This is a life long practice you will work towards. But if you make it a daily one, it will drastically improve your relationship with yourself as well as with others around you. We can be our own biggest mysteries and having a part of us always striving to know and understand oneself can help you heal, grow and transcend life's challenges.

3. Work is not everything. Growing up I always got the message to work relentlessly. But we sometimes get so caught up in the work that we forget to live and enjoy the things we are working so hard for. Rest and breaks are part of effective work. Over doing it could be counter productive and damaging to your health. Don't let your strive for work ruin what you are working so hard for.

4. Listen to your body. Health is wealth they say. I feel that is not something to fully understand until your health goes. Sometimes we push ourselves too hard and don't prioritize our health until we have no choice but too. If something in your life is negatively effecting your physical, mental and emotional health. Then it should be changed even if others around you don't understand. The way you live your life should be supporting and not damaging your health and well being. Life will just keep giving you lessons until you start to take better care of yourself.

5. It takes time. Healing takes time, building a career takes time, learning a new skill takes time. We live in such a fast paced world where everything is instant gratification. That we lose patience with ourselves and process that take longer. Sometimes we need to give ourselves more rest, practice more or stick to a routine longer then expected to get the results we desire. Not everything is meant to happen right away and we can't always control that. Life is not a race, it's OK to just let things be at times and find acceptance for where we are.

6. You are not going to accomplish everything in your 20s. Part of what has been causing me anxiety about turning 30 was that I felt I didn't achieve enough in my 20s and felt like a total failure. I know my older friends will chuckle at this.. But living in a high pressure society where achieving, money, career, marital status, youth and fit body are everything and a symbol of success. You tend to fall into that belief that there is something wrong with you if you don't have all those things.

5. You are always deserving. In life we sometimes get caught up thinking believing that if we were just, more successful, thinner, richer, more talented, then we would deserve to have love, belonging , support. Except that you fall into the perfectionism trap of never being enough. It is important to work towards your goals from a place of worthiness.

6. People will treat you the way you treat yourself and the way you allow yourself to be treated. The most important relationship is the relationship with you. It sets the standard for everything else.You always need to check in with how you are treating you and what you are allowing for in your life. Sometimes we need to adjust our boundaries and sometimes we need to let people go.

7. You're not going to make sense to everyone and sometimes your truth could make others uncomfortable. You may not fit into other's perception of you. Sometimes people will project past pain onto you or idolize and assume you are someone you're not. Like an art piece, some will hate parts of you that others will love. It's all a matter of perception.

8. Everyone has something to teach you and you have something to teach others. Some times what you really need to hear can come through the most unexpected person. And sometimes you are in the right place at the right to be able to help someone else. Learning is something that never ends and sometimes life's great lessons can come to you in unexpected ways, stay open to them.

9. Your past doesn't have to be your future. This is honestly a difficult one I am still in the process of learning. When you are so used to disappointments and circumstances turning out a certain way it is very difficult to believe in a different future. Since such a thing is just out of our perception. Sometimes this could lead to fear and anxiety when an opportunity presents itself. It helps to carry that fear and uncertainty with you like a child and being gentle with it. I also find inspiring is the quote “If you want something you've never had, you must do something you've never done.

10. You can't fight yourself and win. Tony Robbins said to see how everything is happening for you and not against you. I think every part of us is trying its very best to serve us in some way. Even if it seems counter intuitive. Of course this is easier said then done. But all too often I find that when some part of us causes stress, pain or shame we tend to turn against it and try to fight it as if it's some kind of enemy we need to defeat. I find being present with my self when my mind spirals into the panic and fear and seeing it as my mind's way of trying to help me avoid pain. Seeing how it is in fact trying to help me in its own way, and from there gently finding ways to self sooth.

11. It really doesn't matter in the end. You don't have to prove anything. Life is like a wheel of fortune, you never know where it will spin you and others. Whoever is ahead now could be behind in 6 months and vice versa. The things you worry about now may not matter next year. We are the person we are meant to be now growing and learning in our own way. The good, the bad, I believe nothing is by mistake. We exist in this time and space now but there is part of us that goes on for eternity.

Thursday 13 June 2019

Spaceship revised

Hey everyone! Sorry for the slow posts, been crazy busy at school. Lots of exciting projects coming! I took the time to revisit my space ship and change the colors and textures a bit as well as creating a turn table. Cheers!

Here is the turn table including the typology.

Wednesday 1 May 2019

Frog creature design complete

So I finally finished the renders on my Fairy frog that I have been working on in school. My process involves:

1.Starting the model in Zbrush.

2. Importing the finished Zbrush model to be retypologized in Maya, then UVed.

3. Bringing retypologized model back in Zbrush to project onto the original model. This enables all the details and textures but with better typology.

4. In Zbrush I exported displacement masks for the subdivided retypoligized model.

5. I then brough in my retypoligized model into substance painter for painting and textures.

6. The exporting the substance painter paint and textures back into Maya and rendered in Arnold.

Learned a lot on this project and looking forward to making more more and learning more!

Thursday 25 April 2019

Full Pale Blue Dot scene

So for a school project we were given a famous speech by Carl Sagan called Pale blue dot. It is a speech about planet earth and each person in my class had a scene to do. Mine was the first one. The opening is done in nuke, the rest is from Maya and aftereffects here we go!

Monday 8 April 2019

Pale Blue dot

So for today I am posting what I have done so far in my opening scene. We are creating visuals for the Pale Blue Dot, written by Carl Sagan.

I created the scene in Nuke and still have some details to iron out like the flickering clouds. But here is what I currently have!

Thursday 4 April 2019

After effects and transporters!

So here is my first transport effect. I still have a lot to learn in after effects bout you have to start somewhere right! I will have much more working coming out in this program soon since we are in crunch time now!

Tuesday 2 April 2019

Neverland map Part 2!

So after taking some time to get the modeling texturing and rendering out here is what I did!

I wanted to go for a toy, cartoony look so I kept the models relatively simple and kept the colors bright and happy. 

The island started off as a Maya model which I later imported into zbrush to give it a more organic look. I was originally planning to use Houdini height field for the map. However I found that because I was going for a cartoon stylized look. I decided to stick with zbrush. 

The colors have also been done in zbrush spot light tool, to get the more textured parts. As for the simpler parts that only have flat color I used Maya colored shaders. 

I had a lot of fun building this little world and would love to improve upon it. Coming from a background as a background painter, I really enjoy creating worlds, makes me feel like a kid playing with Lego all over again!

Monday 25 March 2019

Nerverland map

So for another class assignment I am given the challenge to create a map. I decided to make the Neverland map from Peter Pan. So far I just have the blocky look going. I'm thinking making a transition from both worlds with London to Neverland. I will see if I keep that look or just focus on Neverland.  I created all the element in Maya so far, but I modified the map shape in zbrush. Enjoy!

Tuesday 12 March 2019

Pop figure of..Me!

So for another class assignment. We were given the challenge of creating a 3d model of myself. It was a fun challenge and I jumped straight into it.

First thing I did was look up some reference of the Funko Pop figures to match the style. Then I jumped into zbrush. This could also be done in maya, but I am more comfortable with modeling organic objects in Zbrush. Also I love Zbrush!

I started off creating 2 separate spheres for the  head and body. Those are on separate sub-tools.

 For the Lims and fingurs. I sinply masked the areas out and pulled them out using the move tool.

I created separate sub tools for the hair, dress and boots. The dress was created with a mask I drew on the body, then I extracted it under sub-tools.

After painting the colors on in substance painter. I assigned the colors into Maya's Arnold render. Then I did a few renders

Here is my finished outcome. I will put the little me model into an environment in the future. But for now here is the completed render. Enjoy :)

Tuesday 5 March 2019

Matte Painting a Mushroom Alien world!

So for a matte painting assignment. I was assigned to create a world that has a sci-fi feel. I decided I wanted to create an alien mushroom planet. Because This is a matte painting and it requires photo manipulation. So I went to Pexels and to mostly get the images that I required.

Then I went on to work on some simple thumbnails to work out the composition and some perspective. It doesn't have to be perfect at this point, just get the basic look and feel.

Then after putting together images in photoshop and editing the images to match the color and perspective. It was a lot of push and pull getting the composition and images to look just right. I didn't end up following the compositions I drew up in my thumbnails exactly and that's Ok. Its a process. Here is what I have so far.

This is a photo manipulation matte painting so I do not own the right to the photos

Monday 25 February 2019

Gummy Bear Renders!

So after lots of trial and error with rendering programs. I decided to import my scene into Maya and render in Arnold. I was finally able to get the gummy texture with no noise with a quick render time. The background and lighting is from a HDRI I found online. I'm planning to still work on some touch ups with the lighting, table and environment but here is what I have!

Tuesday 19 February 2019

Modelling frog creatue design part 1

For my modelling class, I am working on a creature design. I always wanted to model a frog. Now surprise fort those who know's one of my favorite animals.

I started with collecting lots of reference and I decided I will be basing my design after a green tree frog. I started modeling from a sphere in z brush and just getting the basic pose and shapes.

Part of the project is to create a made up creature. So I took the liberty in adding tails for my frog.

Then I just worked on the hands and feet as well as refining the shapes.

 Working in many views helps in order to get the views or your creature looking the correct. I created subtools for the eyes.

I wanted this creature to be a mix of butterfly and tree frog so I added some wings as well as fins at the ends of the tails.

I added some bumpy texture for the skin to give the creature more realism.

Now to finish my re-topology and I am off to texturing and colors!